LSS: Hand in my Pocket

: Alanis Morissette

I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah

I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five.

I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah.

I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright
'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is flicking a cigarette.

What it all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet
'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a peace sign.

I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm hard but I'm friendly, baby

I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chicken shit
I'm sick but I'm pretty, baby

And what it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet
But I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing the piano.

What it all comes down to my friends, yeah
Is that everything's just fine fine fine
'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxi cab. (or giving a fuck you sign)

...story of my life. *sighs*

Workplace Rants

..my work officially sucks. Including some people I work with. That's because it seems everyone in our compshop project will be receiving their bonuses for their efforts (minimal or not), and I--well, don't ask coz I'm close to breaking my computer monitor out of frustration and disappointment. Major effort, minor recognition. THAT SUCKS. I wouldn't even put into detail an email conversation I had because it only fuels up my hatred more and more and more. Just so you know and for the fucking record... I never, NEVER, asked for what I don't or never deserve. I never asked for a raise, and I never asked for something in return for works I've done. But this is just over the edge. Okay, this is INJUSTICE! This goes out to Lily too who's undergoing the same fate as me. Overworked and underpaid. While some people can work and play, we work like freaking robots. I even forget to pee sometimes! I'm close to dying from UTI and blindness and dementia. And all they could say to me is "That's what Intellicare is for". What the?!

Argh. Need some time to breathe. I need another vacation!

Taste Test: @ Kangaroo Jack, Megamall

Mich have this thing of trying out new restos. So yesterday after shopping for baby gifts and some things for ourselves (say new bikini cover-up which looks cute for P499, will post pic soon & new VANS shoes for Mich) we passed by Kangaroo Jack and decided to give their food a try. Their meals are relatively cheap! Their steaks range from P90-150. I think nothing on the menu exceeds P300. So...I ordered a Porterhouse steak, Mich ordered their tanigue steak, we tried their house salad and iced tea. Well, in summary we didn't leave disappointed. The food was better than I expected. And our bill was just P410. :)



...more restos to conquer = more food reviews= me getting fat (including Michelle). Yey!

Relationships 101

...just something I read that might help save someone else's relationship. Enjoy:)

When couples wait too long to ask for help, the relationship may be beyond repair. The sooner help is sought, the better chance there is of recovering, saving and actually strengthening the relationship. This includes issues dealing with affairs or other types of betrayal.

The longer we wait, the more entrenched we get in destructive patterns and resentment and all hope for change is lost.

The longer we wait, the more entrenched we get in destructive patterns and resentment and all hope for change is lost. At a certain point we don't even want change... we just want to be done.

The seven warning signs that a relationship is in trouble are:

1. Fighting has become the rule rather than the exception to the rule.

2. You find yourself looking outside the relationship for comfort, care, and understanding.

3. You can't remember what attracted you to your partner in the first place.

4. There is little or no intimacy in your relationship -- sleeping in different rooms or different beds, lack of interest, anger, and hostility so that intimacy is out of the question.

5. Spending very little time together, friends seem to be more important than your partner.

6. Reactions to situations are disproportionate to the content of the disagreement (i.e., feeling your partner doesn't love you because she/he didn't like the meal you cooked).

7. Feeling helpless and hopeless to change anything. Feeling done with the relationship, but unclear as to where to go and what to do. Feelings of anger, resentment, pain, and desperation are predominant.

If any or all of these describe you in your relationship, your relationship is in trouble and it won't be long before something more drastic happens, such as an affair, arguments get worse and inflate with intensity, increased jealousy, silence for longer periods of time, and sometimes even physical and/or verbal abuse.

Without help, the relationship will never get better with time; once a certain level of resentment, anger, and hostility hits, it will simply get worse and worse. Avoiding a total crisis and saving the relationship is done by knowing when you're in trouble and taking immediate action.

from:http://dating.personals.yahoo.com/singles/relationships/24165/dating-101-seven-warning-signs-of-a-troubled-relationship

Summer High

..because my Mom feels guilty we can't take everyone to Punta Fuego, she asked me to find a nice private pool/house in Laguna. So here I am googling away.

Any help would be very much appreciated.

Thanks in advance! :)

Bad Day

He's soooo fucking annoying!!! Lord, kill me! Why don't he just stay home and spare us of his daily vocalization routine (that irritates me to death!) and his car business that we don't fucking care about! Argh! The only thing that's keeping me form ripping his throat to pieces is the thought that his end (in Branders) is near. And how can he fucking get away with all his bullshits? Is it because he came from "Ateneo"? What the fuck!!! He disrupts my peace and quiet and distracts me to hell with his annoying coughs and footsteps and singing and phone conversation pa-cool voice (boses bading naman duh!). And yung mga pa-smart niang hirit na pang-tanga naman talaga. Not cute!!! And his face, nakakahighblood talaga. It's annoying when you're busting your ass off working and sha ginawa ng office yung pantry. Unfair! He should have been terminated ASAP. He doesn't deserve a 1 month notice. Kahit nga 1 week notice eh! And to top it off, mga 3 times sha kumukha ng food sa pantry. hello cost cutting kaya! Kaya nga once lang pwede kumuha ng food dun d mo ba alam? And kung d mo alam ampanget ng food sa pantry, poorita ka! You can't earn without doing anything boy. I'm sure your school taught you that. Dahil kahit si Bill Gates nagwowork. Eh hindi ka si BIll Gates, kaya umayos ka! Che!!!

Why so sad???

...I lost my silver shoes. The one I bought in HK for P300. The most perfect, super comfy and super soft silver flats in the whole wide world. The one I've been looking for since I first saw it on Cameron Diaz. The one I said I'll find even if it takes me months or years to find it. So there. I'm so sad. :c I still have the left pair though, our Manong guard found it and displayed it downstairs. Boo. Now I feel like Cinderella. But unlike her I'd let my glass slippers go.

Don't worry, I'll get over this tomorrow.

Back and Black

Boo. I know I said I hate summer. And I vowed never to swim under the scorching heat of the sun. EVER. But... the place is just too beautiful and the water's too inviting to ignore. And so..I dove right in and swam from 8-10 am. A record! My usual swimming time is 5:30 pm onwards. Haha. And I don't usually brave the summer sun without an umbrella on hand, a sarong on the other + a buri hat. Haha. But for some reason I learned to trust sunblocks. Cheeks, let's buy a more effective one next time. Pls. So... here's what Potipot Island looks like. Enjoy.:)

* dinner and inuman before lights out.

* pinagbawalan mag yosi kaya nagsindi nlanag ng dahon.

* morning! * blue starfish!
* heat stroke.

* the beach. who wouldn't be tempted. Ngaun negra nako!

* our star gazing place.:)

* uwi na. baduy.

Our Potipot trip costs less than P2K. We took a bus (Victory Liner-Cubao) to Iba for more or less P320. Before hopping on another bus heading to Candelaria, we ate first at Chowking. The trip took 7 hours! So that made my stomach growl to death and I ended up having a super irritating migraine. The bus to Candelaria costs P86. We got to Trinidad Bay Resort at around 5 pm. We rested first, bought some things we still need like water and bowls (we don't have plates!) and other whatevers. At around 6:30 we left Alta Nina resort, got on a banca going to Potipot Island. Even at night the place looks and feels heavenly. So we scouted for a nice spot to camp on. After settling in, we prepared dinner..well, they did. I dragged Mich into the water for some night swimming. Hehe. We finished eating at around 10, finished drinking at around 12, then finally retired at around 1? We woke up at 6am , took pictures and swam at around 8 until 10 am. Our banca came back for us at around 1pm then we left the resort at around 5. We got home almost 3 am na. Shucks.

In summary, it was a nice trip. Where sikat ang imodium, CR's, danggit, sunog na liempo and walang yosi! Boo. Chesca tayo naman next time! Loves!

Morning Dew

So... here's another chapter of my life. :) Some fresh start, a breath of fresh air, a happier heart. And I think I will be blogging more since I have a lot of activities lined up. Most of them with Cheeks.:)

Tomorrow we'll be going to Potipot. Yey! I also can't wait for our Punta Fuego trip on May 9 (with my family), and of course Thailand. And now I am soo pressured to save. :( Boo. Puro gastos! Haha! I hope my sideline works well para may extra money. And I have to sell more clothes on ebay na!

I have updated my jobstreet, jobsdb and resume last week. I am already looking for new potential employers. Not that I hate working here coz after all Branders do give a nice compensation package (kahit ako na lowest paid dito na overwork pa, boo!) and we can go to work anytime (at night lang ha) so I never get late. BUT, I don't like to work at night anymore. There just comes a point when you've had enough. I have a more challenging work now but sometimes I feel like it's impossible to do all my tasks na. Nakakahilo I swear. Nakakasuka na. Haha. I want a job where I can really interact with people and not just stare at my computer all day. If you can only see how dim my monitor is, graaaaaabe.

Oh well, whatever happens happen. *Hopeful*

After Shock

As our story ends and our chapter closes,
I looked back for a final glimpse.
to you who I loved for days and months and years,
you who tested my emotions until I surrendered.
you who made me smile and cry and curse and die.

It was worth it.

And as I bury the past,
I'll bury with it all the hurt, pain, frustration, disappointments and everything in between.
Leaving only good memories...the BEST memories.
Then I'll smile as I think of you.
A vague shadow, some faint recollection.
Locked in their final embrace...
You who loves me,
and I who loved you.

*curtain call*final bow*exits*

i am at work and i'm supeeeer sleepy. My head has been wanting to drop on my table as I search for more job openings, sidelines and images of stamps for our compshop project.

I hate it when I'm this sleepy. Makes me want to hail the first cab I'll see downstairs. If you're not too busy come by my work station, I just might flag you down. Zzzzzzzzzzzz...

Sunday with the Rangers

Last Sunday I met up with 2 of my great great friends, Gsel and Cecille. They're my friends in St. Scho and Cecille (whom I fondly call sis) had been my pakner in college (in UST). So when Cecille called to ask me if I wuild like to have coffee with them I immediately said yes. I have been wanting to see them since forever (which was really hard to do given we have different scheds).

In the car after meeting up we were discussing where we'd be spending the afternoon. Haha. Our original plan was just to have coffee in Marquinton. After 30 mins. I found myself in Greenbelt Starbucks. Haha! We just sat there for hours just talking, laughing, and into some really serious catching up. I missed them. :) So much. :) We're planning for our weekend get-away but we haven't finalized anything yet (Cecille!!!). Maybe puerto?camiguin?palawan? Doesn't matter, I'd go anywhere with you guys just make up your minds already! Haha!

When Mich arrived we then transferred to Oodys for an early dinner. We love Thai food! Haha! The food we ordered would feed 6 people. Argh. I love their Pad Thai, bagoong rice, chicken with lemon grass, and spicy mangoes! Gsel ordered for their house tea, and when it came I swear I saw her jaw drop. It looks like coffee. Not quite what she expected. Haha! It suddenly became fear factor-ish and she made all of us taste it. It tasted like Gulaman. She swear it tasted like Taho. So our food savior Cecille swapped her Coke Light with Gsel's tea para daw hindi sayang. Haha!



So there, it was a Sunday well-spent. Let's meet more often girls.:)

Summer fever

So we're going to Potipot on the 21st, that's why I've been looking for swimsuits and coverups a.k.a panic buying. Last Wednesday I went to Eastwood to get something from my sister. But on my way out of the building I wasn't able to stop myself from going inside the store Preview (even if I was near passing out of fatigue). Haha! I got out 20 mins later with a pair of black Babo bikini on hand. :P It's super cute and it's only P650. I swear I saw something like this on Multiply sold for P1300. :)


So there, segway muna. There will be a summer bazaar in Eastwood on March 14-15 brought to you by US Girls! Check it out if you have time. Ciao!

on Happy Pills and then some...

Besides Ebay, Multiply and shopping, I do have other things on my Happy Pill list...Happy Pill- v. a strange act wherein one seems high on something thus resulting to excessive grining, smiling or laughing (even after being rundown by a thousand year old stroller).

1) Mango Crepe - this is why I love Banchetto day!

2)Bacon & egg sandwich from Tapatouille - for only P50 and it comes with potato chips. Yum yum. I'd be happy to die from cholesterol for a lifetime supply of this.

3) DQ Sandwich - Vanilla icecream sandwiched between chocolate biscuits. From Dairy Queen, P35 each. I will never get tired of eating this.

* nagaadik

4)Book Sale - I could just get lost inside this store ALL DAY..finding a good book bargain.



5) Arcade - Timezone, worlds of fun, name it. I have just rediscovered my childhood.

6) DVDs - I just love crashing on our couch. And newly rented or purchased DVDs make me ecstatic.

7) Vacations- come on... who doesn't? Out of town or out of the country? Doesn't matter as long as I'm out of the office!!!

8) Mexican and Thai foods - ok, so they're officially my fave. I came into that conclusion when I noticed how often I drag people (named Cheeks) to try and shove burritos or bagoong rice in their throats. I love love love spicey foods.
* at Oodys Greenbelt last Sunday, dinner with Mich and my HS (and college) friends Cecille and Gsel. I super missed them. Let's do this more often. Ahhh, good vibes. :) May social life ka na Gsel ha. haha

9) Spa - Now I want to go back to Callospa. Argh.


10) Moolah stashed in your jeans or shorts - just when you thought you can't wait til next payday, voila! you find some bills in your jean pocket or shorts. Jackpot lng. Haha.

Mich reminded me of my ultimate happy pill... HELLO PANDA!!!
..what's yours?:P

on Happy Pills

...we shopped till my head got all heavy and I nearly fainted from hunger. While waiting for M to finish with her meet-up, I browsed through numeorus racks in SM department store. When she got back I already have a dress (cute swimsuit cover-up) in my hand. It's super cute. Will post pic soon. Well, here it is!

* for P499.00. Pwede na din... Cute colors naman.:P

So I also searched for a nice pair of slippers (yung tig P89.75 lng duh, I miss Dupe!) just something I'd use in our apartment. So.... afterwards we got up one floor and I ended up trying on 9 pieces of clothing. Crazy haha. So I ended up buying 1 pair of slippers, 1 dress, 1 skirt (which I love love love! It looks like some kind of piece of art), and 1 shirt.

* P499.00 skirt.

M bought a pair of pants and plaid shorts (which I picked out for her!). I'm excited. Sloooow transition. I promise!:P Our next buy~~new pair of slippers and VANS. Oh and we were able to buy storage stackable cabinet. Whatever. My clothes are resting in peace in paperbags. Hello savings! *hopeful*

... i wanna cry. Coz I want to remember you in a good light. Kahit na mas madami yung sama ng loob ko instead of the happiness, I want to smile whenever I think of you. Pero, you won't let me. And I'm over and done explaining to other people. I'm quite disppointed din to some of our friends who wants to hear my side. I believe I already explained everything to them even before she came. It's not easy bringing up the past, hindi madali ikwento ulit kung pano ka binaliwala and binasura dati db? And for some people who've been here, this place, they should have known better. And for those who think that plane tickets to somewhere, clothes, or money could bring back love or magic or could offset all the bad feelings, then try being here. Coz I assure you, it is NEVER easy. Yun lng. Pagod nako. So, I'm letting it all go. Sorry for all the mistakes I made. But I'm pretty sure all the things I did for you already paid for that, sobra sobra pa. Cguro it's about time that I value myself more than you. Thank you Lord for the silver lining and for letting me see that I deserve better.

*Thank you Kathy, Vian, Aiza and Lily (and my closest friends who knows the real me) for reassuring me and for picking me up everytime I drown myself in doubts and guilt. For not siding with me when I'm really wrong, and for being brutally honest that sometimes I want to cover my ears so I won't hear you (haha sorry). But most of all, for being there when I can't smile anymore (which is a phenomenon), when I drown myself in rock music and act deaf mute all day, for hearing my rants and raves, for always giving me "un"-sorted opinions and facts and for sacrificing your lungs (except Kathy) when I want to release my anger and frustrations through a pack of Marlboros. And for reminding me over and over that I am enough and I've done enough and I deserve to be happy, FINALLY. Thanks.

**And to YOU, who could just easily tell me to hate her and wage war. But you never did. That's how nice of a person you are.Thanks for opting to act as my friend everytime, even if my rants and sentiments also hurt you. You make me a better person by always reminding me to show respect to others even to those who hurt me and make me doubt myself. And during those times I wanted to do things just to get even, you asked me to stop and not level myself with those who choose to play some sick game of revenge. Whenever I'm tempted to text hurtful words, words of retaliations, you ask me to put my phone down, breathe and just smile. You told me that's not who I am and I am better than that. When I felt so bad because I felt I was betrayed too, when I felt I want to hibernate and not talk about it anymore... you told me to talk to people and explain my side (explain and NOT defend myself), lay down the facts, but still show some respect to the subject, coz you said after all that's someone I loved for a long time, and you're right. Whenever I pull myself down, you bring me right back up. That's who you are, always and forever. And I'll be the dumbest ever, if I let you get away again.

Current Mood: PISSED. Everyday you give me more reasons to prove that what I did was right. Goodluck on your new life. And pls... pls... I hope you learned your lessons. Love fully, talk freely, time is really of the essence, and dreams are everything.

I'm done. I'm out. Have a great, great life.

Goodbye... :)

...good memories, only the good memories will count. :) Thanks for everything duckie.

BURNOUT (Sugar Free)

O wag kang tumingin
ng ganyan sa ‘kin
wag mo akong kulitin
wag mo akong tanungin

Dahil katulad mo
ako rin ay nagbago
di na tayo katulad ng dati
kay bilis ng sandali

O kay tagal kitang minahal

Kung iisipin mo
di naman dati ganito
teka muna teka lang
kailan tayo nailang

Kung iisipin mo
di naman dati ganito
kay bilis kasi ng buhay
pati tayo natangay

O kay tagal kitang minahal

Tinatawag kita
sinusuyo kita
di mo man marinig
di mo man madama

O kay tagal kitang mamahalin.


#fishie

Confessions of a Shopaholic

...disappoints. I dunno I was not that smitten with who's that bida girl again (but I do love Isla Fisher)? Well, I wasn't that smitten with her as I was with Cher (of Clueless). The story's parang kulang! Matabang ba. Haha. And I dunno I swear I've watched (or read?) that plot/storyline before. So it was not fresh and as refreshing to me (sorry fanatics). BUT then again, I can totally relate pa din to the bida. Haha. But not to the extent of someone chasing after me na like a fucking psycho just to make me pay my debts (except my Mom, argh). The movie's okay but it didn't really satisfy my craving unlike the film The Devil Wears Prada. Haha. There are some good parts but it's just too bland for my taste. And the fashion...um,over over the top? Haha, totally un-wearable. Well..at least for me. The only thing that kept me on the edge of my seat is Hugh Dancy, eeee...dreamy, dreamy.:P

At the end of the day it's still a feel good movie (chick flick in Mich's term), and everyone deserves to feel good once in a while especially when this fucking world reeks of stress from work etc. etc. So go. Treat yourself! But just don't buy a $100 scarf, even if it's green. Ok?

I hate SUMMER, but...

I really do. The heat just automatically activates my allergy buttons everywhere. BUT...*wait for it* (haha)...

I do love my new swimsuit!!! ~~I've been looking everywhere for a nice pair that would not make my boobs look saggy or without me having a very embarassing camel toe. So...... I went to Mega yesterday and was able to buy a nice pair of swimwear at F&H (I was not that hopeful to be honest)! It's white (yeah yeah I know wearing a white bikini bottom is supeer dangerous.. "hello pubes!") but don't fret (just like my sister did) I've already thought of a good action plan for that. :P

Bought a 2 pc. white tankini for only P750. That's a lot of savings for a nice and classy looking bikini. Haha. I wouldn't want to shell out more than a thousand for just that (I'd rather buy a pair of jeans). So there! Just sharing my latest shopping secret.

Loves!

*warning: this is not me.

(the tankini whole set)
(but will wear it with my black w/ white belt Bayo bikini bottom)

Will I buy the black one? Hehe. I want..grr.

Much I Do About Nothing

...last Sunday while waiting for my family (minus my atheist brother) at St. Francis for our regular Sunday service at CCF, Tweets and I decided to pass by Powerbooks in Mega (after buying 2 books from Book Sale). On the table near the entrance I picked up this book “Much I Do About Nothing: Zany Interviews of an Annulment Lawyer with Spouses of Superheroes“ By Atty. Onnie Martin.

I read the first page and I can't put it down. Haha, hilarious. I don't want to shell out P300 for a book (that's why we have Book Sale!) so I decided to just read it in the store (while Mich looked for a book about Thailand). When you get to the middle it gets a little boring and um, flat? Haha. But it's funny I swear I looked like a lunatic laughing there.

"

Anything goes in the wacky world of the author: crazy spouses of mad superheroes and anti-heores bare their bizarre reasons for wanting to annul/nullify their marriages or for seeking a legal separation. The lawyer who counsels them is just as nuts and ends up getting mired in sticky, inextricable situations with his wild clients.

But in the midst of all the rollicking, side-splitting humor, he manages to provide expert legal information on the Philippine laws that govern the break-up of marriages.

This book is a sequel to the first Much I Do About Nothing that was widely-read and was shortlisted in the 2008 National Book Awards of the Manila Critics Circle that is administered by the National Book Development Board. Both books are products of the author’s out-of-the-box thinking that uses fictional comedy to entertain and painlessly provide accurate legal information on marriage cases.

Much I Do About Nothing – Part Two is available at all National Book Stores, PowerBooks, and other major book stores at P290 per copy.

"- from PhilStar

Next Trip: Thailand

Sana June 5 na!!! :) Huhuhu have to save, really save! Since I wasn't able to shop in HK, I am hopeful I'd be able to go home with lotsa shopping bags from here. Tweets I promise I won't drown you in receipts. :)

And wala po kaming pera, may promo fare lang Cebu Pacific ok? Haha.

Post-Mortem

"Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings."
— Anaïs Nin


To our new lives, CHEERS.