My life as a KOOLASA.

If I would to choose what years (in my whole 25 years of breathing the polluted air of manila) I would love to relive, I would answer without second thoughts : HIGH SCHOOL. Don't get me wrong college was just as fun but college also went by so fast that 4 years was not enough to make me yearn. I studied in an exclusive school for girls in Marikina (yeah it is NOT manila and for some people our school branch is Jologs) but I don't f*&$Cking care, 'coz in St. Scho it was one helluva sunshiney bumpy teenage schoolgirl life I lived. High School was just 4 years but for us, it seemed like forever. :) Everyday we wake up, ride our schoolbus and enter Gate 1 or 7 to be greeted by oh so familiar faces...that's because we've seen each other grow up and mature for 11 years. I've been in Isko (that's how we call our school) since Prep until I graduated last 2000. And for most of us it also was our comfort zone. There were some people who left when we graduated Elementary but there were also new faces with cool personas who entered our fence (like Lea!!! I miss our BLC moments!Uwi ka na!).

I was never timid or shy, I am loud and very VERY talkative. When I was in Grade 4 I was elected as the class Vice-President, but after a few months IMPEACHED hahaha! It's because Darlene (who was our class prez that time) and I were caught throwing our shoes at each other on the platform in our classroom. In short, our teacher said we were bad role models. Sorry hehe. And the funny thing is, I still got re-elected...as Sgt-At-Arms this time!!! Talk about low-blow demotion. Hahaha! This was also the year that my "creative writing" skill was officially outed when one of my poems was published in our school newspaper circulation. It is titled "Eleven Minutes to One". Too bad I lost my last copy of that poem. A year after, Grade 5, I was elected as class President this time. I don't know why they keep on electing me when all I ever did was make noise. Well, it did make me a little responsible and I learned a lot. During that time we had an "English Campaign" wherein everyone was required to speak in *surprise!*...English. My english teacher gave me little blue laminated cards instructing me to give them to anyone who breaks the rule. Since I am a friendly person it was very hard for me to reprimand my classmates especially my friends. For the first 2 weeks I was lax assuming that this whole thing would just pass, but my teacher summoned me again to warn me that if I don't do my job I will be the one who'll get de-merits. So one day as my classmates (including my friends) are in their usual tagalog chit-chat sessions I gave away the blue cards. I really felt bad. I felt bad and I had no choice...so I cried. In front of everyone. Hahaha!!! And I never cry! That same year I had my first "girl crush". She was one batch higher than me, a student council officer, and my batchmate's girlfriend. I had a crush on her for about 2 years and I never told her about it. Yeah I'm torpe! haha! In my last year in elementary, I became a member of "Samahan sa Panulat", a club or org for tagalog writers. And guess what? I'm the club President. Hehehe! It was super fun for me because for one whole year we were doing news correspondence. We had deadlines for our write-ups and I had control over it. Well, most of the members are my barkada. Hahaha! Our monthly circulation covered school events, news, programs and creative writing. It was high barkada time and we often run around the "old gym" or the field playing, gossiping, harrassing each other, doing merry-go-rounds (it's a game wherein we hold hands forming a circle then spinning around like crazy 'til one us crashed on the floor, injured and brought to the clinic...and that was the end of it). During our grad practice I was also often reprimanded because whenever we do our semi-spin and walk routine on the stage, my teacher would always see the hem of my uniform full of safety pins...large ones. Hahaha! I was too lazy to sew my uniform.

When graduation day came we were all excited 'coz we didn't know what to expect in High School. We were anxious and excited and sad because some of us decided to transfer to other schools (mostly at Isko's extension: Miriam..haha!). That summer I never got to sleep much as the first day of school (in our new life) came nearer each day. Anticipation was soaring high. HELLO HIGH SCHOOL. (to be continued on next entry...)

Too bad, So sad! Sorry!

I was having my daily chat with Algn. She said she's gonna buy an external hard drive for me. She'll send it as my b-day gift. Then I told her it's "baduy"... a hard drive for my b-day. I'm not even a techie person. I would rather receive a nice, heart felt, mushy letter from her than that. Then she said she's not into surprises. And that she's too lazy to do that. GREAT. I am a hopeless romantic and those are MY kind of things. I don't even know if she likes, appreciates or she becomes more smitten whenever I surprise her or do crazy things for her. Like the video I sent her. I worked hard for that. I had to adjust all the pictures to fit into the songs lyrics and that took forever. When she received it she said it made her cry and she misses me. After that, she didn't bring it up again. So I posted it on my blog. And it suprised me that some people found it sweet and romantic. It even made my seatmate Aiza cry a little (according to her! haha!). They were touched. But not her. She was touched but not enough to swoon over me. I just don't know what to do. How would she ever fall completely and hopelessly in love with me? When would she ever feel what I'm feeling? For 2.5 years I have been fighting for her, battling for her affection. But she never was that girl. And maybe she NEVER will be. I just have to put up with it. She sent me a balikbayan box though, last May. For some, that's sweet especially when she sent expensive things and other stuffs for all the other people in the house. She gave me an expensive watch, perfume, clothes, etc.etc. I know now she could give me everything and anything. BUT, those things never mattered to me. I would rather open a surprise love letter in my mailbox than a box with an expensive watch. I searched the whole balikbayan box you know..for any surprise letter that she may have stashed anywhere. But there's none. I appreciate though all the dolphin stuffs she gave me...coz she knew how much I loveee dolphins...and glow in the dark stars.

So I guess for now, the hard drive will do. At least it's useful. I could store all our pictures there and all the other videos I made for her. Yey (sarcastic tone).

My Wishlist

There are still some thing's I drool for. It's because they are out of reach, expensive or just plainly out of my league. And others it's because I just found a better alternative. Here are just some of them:

1) Shu Uemura Eyelash Curler - I know I could buy this anytime. One could buy this at Rustan's for P1,500. It is even sold in multiply shops online for P800. I could buy this, but it's just not worth my money. It's because I found a cheaper alternative to this world renowned eyelash curler with quite the same effects: FANNY SERRANO eyelash curler for more or less P200. I read about this on COSMO and so far it never disappointed me.:)

2) Laura Mercier SECRET CAMOUFLAGE concealer - It's also available in Rustan's for about P2500. People have raved about it in magazines and I have always been curious about it. But I still can't let go of my mineral concealer so I'd probably try that next time. I am also not so much a fan of buying branded make-up especially when I know I could find something equally effective. For my dark undereye circles I'm currently using 2 kinds of concealers: liquid and powdered. For my liquid concealer I have always been loyal to Maybelline illuminating concealer (P400+) or Loreal true match liquid concealer (P600+) and my current find is Mary Kay tube liquid concealer in beige (P500). For my pwdered concealer I will always be loyal to Luminare mineral concealer in caramel ( a 3g shift jar has lasted for 6 months! For only P480!).











3) LNA Deep V-neck Shirt - This is a shirt which costs almost P3000 but looks like Crispa. Hehehe. But it has become popular in Hollywood and more and more stars were seen wearing this. I love it because it is snug and sexy and fits anyone perfectly. But for a plain shirt it is kinda expensive. It is also very similar to American Apparel's plain deep v-neck tee style 6465 which retails for $20. Still kinda expensive. So when I found a seller in ebay who sells American Apparel items for almost 70% off I got ecstatic. I am still choosing what colors to order. The shipping might be kinda expensive for $20 but I would be able to buy 5 shirts for P1900. It's still quite a bargain.
















* (L) American Apparel v-neck shirt; (R) Lna V-neck shirt




















4) Authentic Chanel 2.55 flap bag - This costs almost P60K. For a bag that small and for any bag..that amount is just outrageous. That's why I'm happy I met Justine and Renah in multiply :) They resell top class Chanel replica which totally looks vintage...and real. Not only do they sell chanel but they also sell Balenciaga (they have a gold hardware similar to what Vanessa Hudgens love carrying around), Hermes, LV, Mango, etc. etc. It's a haven.












* (T) Authentic Chanel 2.55 Jumbo Flap ; (B) My own CHANEL for less than P2K. ;)








5) Versace Gladiator Heels - This booties give me the shivers (as my good friend Anne would say haha!). I would die for these! This emerald green Versace gladiator heels was first seen on the runway for their Spring '08 show. It is so gorgeous, trendy and the color's bright and sooo fasyon. I am certain that this costs around $800-$1K. Pair these with a black satin mini-dress, short-shorts over-all/jumpsuit or with skinny jeans. Uber fab. :)




...will post more tomorrow!

Walking Zombie

I am bored. I want to go to work later but I was advised by my doctor to have a complete bed rest. I was planning to go to work yesterday since I have a deadline and I hate the feeling of leaving work behind. But by 9 pm I still have a fever of 40 degrees and my Dad (who seldom tells me what to do) mandated for me to just stay home. My mom dragged me out of bed this morning to take me to the doctor. Aside from my greasy hair (no bath for 2 days) I still have fever and I was having chills. So I just put some powder on my bangs (to lessen the grease) and wore a hoodie. My throat aches so much thats why I can't eat normal food. My mom bought gatorade for me so that my tongue would look reddish when the doctor checks my toncils. Just to give you all a brief recap, I have been drinking antibiotics for 2 weeks. I have been diagnosed with acute bronchitis 2 weeks ago. Now my doctor diagnosed me with acute toncillipharyngitis. WTF?! Is that even on medical dictionaries? Anyway, she couldn't believe that 2 weeks on antibiotics didn't do me any good. She didn't want to give me any antibiotics but she said she has no choice. And boy was it MAJOR! I bought my meds and it's P300 per capsule. If this doesn't cure me then what else will! This better work or I'll be banging my head so hard on the wall just to numb me literally and my wallet figuratively. Oh and I also underwent a bloodtest/CBC wherein the result was an abnormal count of my white blood cells or my neurophils. I researched about it, seems that these are the cells that protects our immune system which in my case obviously didn't! Worst case scenario is that resulting to leukemia. Yeah whatever. I asked my doctor if I could come to work today and she just laughed at me. Then she printed in the med cert in bold letters, ADVISED BED REST. Some people she said would rejoice over this BUT NOT ME. She even asked me if I could go on a vacation. Yeah right. I can't wait to go to work. I still have a project to work on.

My Video for her.

My Boring Sunday

I love slacking and I was able to do just that today! Okay not really. Since Ate Edna's (she was my sister's yaya and now she works for us once a week to do our laundry) husband died last week our clothes have mounted to infinity. Haha. I considered just bringing it to the laundry shop near our house but then I thought of the bill (since it is a lot of clothes) AND my mom said she lost a shirt when they brought their clothes there one time. So, no thanks. I did my own laundry. Better spend an hour doing it than lose my hard-earned clothes..in a laundry shop. So anyway, that was around 1 pm. Before that, at around 5 am I was watching SUGAR RUSH, a lezzie series in UK (thanks M i'll return it on Monday!) and ordered breakfast from Mcdonalds. Yeah, we are just super lazy to cook. And I was craving for french fries. :P I had to sleep at around 7 am since my mom keeps walking around the sala and I can't let her watch what's on 'coz she's a little homophobic. Well, she knows I have a gf but she doesn't have to know what we do in private. Hence, I turned the thing off and slept. When I got up again I was already in the mood to wash my clothes. And I'm never in the mood to do that. Maybe it's because Algn and I were still not okay. I needed something to do to distract myself. I also continued watching Sugar Rush and tried to covet the PC from my sister but since she's doing something more important (like work important) I gave in. Anyway, I also thought that if I sit infront of the PC I will only be tempted to email her. So at around 5 pm after my sister's done working I started with my little project again. I'm making a video for Algene (via Windows videomaker). I planned to send it on my birthday but since this is a perfect time to remind her of what we have, I will send it today. Now it's already 12am and I'm done with the video...and sent it. We're also kind of a little okay now. She messaged me first...asking me why I emailed her. So okay, I forgot to mention it (deliberately) but I sent her an email...a blank one. Arrrgh told myself I wouldn't. But she emailed back asking why and I did not answer back. It's just like in the movies wherein a girl/boy misses someone and tries to ring them, then when that someone picks up an unknown force sucks the courage out of them resulting to the "ringer" putting down the phone..fast. Even when they know that the person they called knows it is them. Haha! So going back, she asked me why I emailed her. And the lamest answer I could give her was, "Wrong Send". Hahaha! Even she knew it was crap. So I told her the truth, "I was thinking of you ALL DAY. And I just don't know what to tell you". And then she said SORRY. Then my heart melted again...So my birthday plan will push through after all. Although my one and only birthday wish is to be with her. ;C

The Plague

I think this is it. It'll be over soon. :c